what am I scared of?
what am I good at?
what can I do to move forward?
I think I'm scared of failing. I don't want to be out of work for 9 months again and to feel that I'm not movng forward and that I've made the wrong decision. I think deep down I believe that i'm not good enough to be successful. I worry that my career will stop dead and that I will be reliant on Alan. I don't like the feeling that I won't be financially independent.
In order to move forward, I believe that I will need to think more positively and creatively about this move. It will be a new start for us in a new county and will enable use to improve our language skills agian. It will give us experience of working in a different culture. We need clear plans and ideas together in order to move forward.
I know that I'm good at working my way through challenges and difficulties. I don't give up and I don't stop until I've achieved my goal. I am persistent. I need to be a little braver and I need a way to think more positively instead of worrying about the negative all the time.
The most important thing in my life is Alan and my relationship. I want the time to strengthen this before we start a family and to sort out our intimate life. At the moment we are both tired and stressed and have little time for each other. Zurich should give us the space and time to enjoy each other's company.
At the same time I want a job that develops my career, that allows me to work on my own personal development and to develop my training and strategy skills in a bigger company. I am prepared to put a lot of time and effort into a job, whilst checking that this effort has a positive end result. Work and voluntary work should enrich our lives, not burden them.