Stopping drinking tea has been much harder. I had terrible headaches Mon to Weds, and I’m sure that was related. They’ve gone now and I feel much better through drinking lots of water and peppermint tea. I just want to give my body a few weeks break and hopefully break some deep-grained habits.
I’m making up my night watch this weekend, so feel ok about that, although I know I did really let them down last Saturday. Overall this week I’ve felt a lot more positive because of these steps that I’ve taken – I’m using it as a good opportunity to be positive about what I’ve found out. We also hid the TV last week and didn’t watch any at all, which was strangely reassuring.
I went to Pilates and had a massage today and have arranged some more sessions for next week. I really want to get less stressed and get more stretched and healthy again. I did look into Holmes Place today on Oxford Street, but may try just to get back into using LA Fitness more. Weight Watchers was successful this week in that I lost 2.5 pounds. I still have a lot of rethinking to do work wise. I need to find some way to work smarter not harder, and also to not try and cross every T etc.
The study however has been sadly lacking this week. The MOUS exams took over, although I did pass all with high marks. I’m going to try and get back on track this weekend. I’m also planning to do 2 sessions in the gym, plus my nightwatch, plus have a netmeeting with Jane! I think I need to change my attitude. I can’t sit here and worry about everything I haven’t done. I have to just start at the top of the list and work my way down. It may be that I don’t do as well as I could on this first essay, but I’ll have to accept that that was a consequence of the choices I made over the last few months, and then try to change and do things differently. I certainly have to work a lot harder that I have been doing and take it more seriously. I keep panicking about the essay and seem paralysed by it. I must just start the reading again and see how far I get.
