The last couple of weeks and months have just been work, work, work. My polish project is sucking the last drops of life blood out of me! I exaggerate slightly, but there is more work than hours in the day. I am trying to work smarter, not harder, but don`t seem to be succeeding.
On the good side, most days I really get a buzz. I love my job, I feel part of the team and I'm charge of a huge project, which is mostly going well. I feel creative and things are happening because of me. Unbelievable I have been at CS now for a year. And I can see the huge progress that I have made. A huge achievement this week was training in German for a whole day, on my own, and getting really good feedback! Of course, I very quickly dismiss these positive things....
On the flip side, the last week or two I have been really struggling. My energy and motivation levels have been exhausted. Of course this has a lot to do with TOTM last week. I realise this, but always manage to discount it. I need energy to get me through to at least mid-August and at the moment I don't see that happening.
At the moment I also feel pretty guilty about a multitude of things. Why worry singly when you can worry multiply? In no particular order:
I'm eating badly
not exercising, not running
not writing in livejournal
not doing journaleer homeworks
not getting to yoga
generally not doing the things that I enjoy doing
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I am still around and am working hard to get my life into balance again....