July 7th, 2005

career

Logging off for a little while

I need to get my head down for a week, and see how much of the dissertation I can actually finish before my 'Hurray I've finished Party' on the 17th July. The irony is - I won't have finished, and that'll just be another deadline I've missed! I give myself such a hard time about it, when really all I should be concentrating on is getting it done and dusted. I am so eager to finish this and move on, but I seem unable to. I'm not sure why, maybe I'm afraid of having finished? I don't intend to post here for a week or so - I need to just concentrate on one thing at a time. I'm also going to stop worrying about my weight for a little while.

Given the events of today in London, my worries seem very small in focus. In a bizarre way, I wish I was in London. It seems harder to think about it from far away. I both loved and hated having lived in London for 8 years, and I can remember all the travel distractions and breakdowns and bomb alerts that we lived through. All that fear and anticipation, and now the attacks have really happened. It's hard to comprehend. Still trying to get in contact with all my friends there.