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The first year fog is lifting...

Patrick is 14 months old today and his last breastfeed was a week ago (Mon 10th Sept). He had been down to one feed a day for the last month or so, but in the last few weeks he has been feeding very erratically and has really weaned himself off the boob. Up to his first birthday, he has been enthusiastically still nursing consistently once or twice a day and showed no interest in stopping.

I was worrying about how to finish breastfeeding, since I didn't really want to stop whilst he was still feeding well. It's such a definite end. Once you stop, you've stopped - there's no going back. And then the baby period, that time of such closeness, is definitely over.

I am glad that he decided when and how to stop. And actually, it wasn't so hard. I am now feeling the benefits. The fog of hormones and tiredness is lifting (and even now I am realising how under the fog I was the whole time) and my energy and fighting spirit is returning. Plus, it is a nice feeling to have my body properly back to myself again. This does mean though that I have no excuse for not losing weight! I just can't think too much about the fact that I've breastfed him for the last time, or I will get a bit nostalgic and upset.

Anyway, onwards and upwards! Don't look back - look forwards. I did a great job of feeding him for so long and he is a healthy and happy toddler in the rudest of health :-) He now saunters round the flat, bottle of formula in hand, swigging away - its hilarious.

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